Aestu wrote:
I pace and I brood.
I just sat down after doing that for a few hours just now, actually.
This thread is actually kind of funny to me, because the challenge you face is known to me only because I hear others describe it. I simply don't feel loneliness. Being alone for days or even months causes me no discomfort, but I am aware that others would find it very unsettling.
I don't really understand how people feel that way, tbh. I guess it's like munching on a food you like and wondering why your peanut-allergic friend is in hives.
Once my father said, "It will be hard for you, being alone in your apartment." I replied, "No, I don't get lonely." There was a silence on the other end of the phone. "Everyone gets lonely, Ethan," he said, deadpan. I made no reply but was thinking, "man, you really don't know your son well." Funny enough, two different landlords have complained about my incessant pacing.
My advice to you is to rationalize it away. Analyze the feelings you have and try to define them in logical terms. It's like shining a flashlight on a shadow.
Aestu wrote:
I don't know why but I am more lonely lately.
