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I don't subscribe to the whole idea that disorders give you excuses to be a fuck up. No, I'm pretty sure I'm just a fuck up because I'm stupid and make bad decisions. But in regards to that article:

As far as my work life goes, I've never had a problem minus just not wanting to go in because I felt I had better things to do on a given day.

Family is alright, I will admit I jump between loving and always wanting to see my parents and family to I don't feel like going over there. Not in the extremes that the article describes.

I understand everyone has their little quirks, but if you knew me and you know how I act in a relationship. You'd know how spot on that article is. Just out of curiosity, before I came here but after I read it, I sent that article to the ex that I've had the longest relationship with. She said, "You did all of that to me minus the suicide threats." I'll admit, I've gone from happy-go-lucky, on top of the world, to oh my fucking god I feel like my heart is gonna explode god kill me now. Just on the anxiety that I got from her and something she said when she was mad at me for some bullshit reason.

I do get wild mood swings though I'm very apathetic to just about everything. When I'm not apathetic though, I feel whatever it is to such a degree, I don't know really how to put it into words.

That all being said, I don't plan on going to a doctor to find out. I don't plan on getting any medication. I don't plan on introducing myself as, "Hi I'm James, and I have Borderline Personality Disorder." I plan on doing what I've always done and just dealing with the shit as it comes.

I just thought it was a good read and kinda interesting from my point of view, wanted to share.

First of all, I think Aestu should post in here...in essay form. Would be a good read.

Secondly, I think there's something wrong with everybody...if someone claims to be "normal" they are a dirty liar. What the hell does "normal" mean anyway?

As for me...here are the things that are wrong with me:

1. Obsessive - I get obsessed with things, usually women (IE Bus Girl)...basically I fall in love too easily, then they dominate my thoughts and then I usually end up doing stupid, neurotic things as a result

2. Jealous - I'm extremely jealous by nature. I try not to let it control me, but sometimes I just feel that jealous "twinge" and it makes me act crazy

3. Awkward - I can be pretty awkward

IDK there's probably more...I talk to myself sometimes and oh yeah, I had a random outburst where I randomly destroyed my laptop because it got a virus and I couldn't fix it...so I guess I have anger management issues sometimes.


Man I'm kinda fucked up.

I kind of like what Dotz said, the human being self is too complex to be cut and dry with 1 or 2 diagnosis'. Everyone is just a mix of complexes...that whole thing...it got me thinking.

And Azelma, no one is normal in that two or more people are exactly the same. There are however, societal norms that one can use to define normal.

While I don't normally peel paint and gunk off counters, and Eturnalshift does, this doesn't make him abnormal in every sense of the word, just abnormal in that he is compelled to peel it.

For one example, anyway.

Brawlsack

Taking an extended hiatus from gaming

I'd be very interested in hearing his thoughts as well pertaining to this thread..he has insights and a way of thinking that sometimes raises new points and issues that I never would have seen.

Brawlsack

Taking an extended hiatus from gaming

Aestu obsession on display itt

Moar good reads go.

I would probably have been diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder if I had seen a shrink about 10 years ago. I was fine with one or two friends, but I absolutely dreaded going to parties and other social gatherings and avoided them as much as possible. If I did force myself to go, I would usually throw up before leaving and at the party, and leave as soon as I could. I was completely unable to talk to strangers. I still sometimes experience a bit of discomfort in social situations, but it's progressed a lot from where it was, to just be normal shyness.

I also had an episode of major depression a few years ago. I didn't get enjoyment out of anything, and I filled the gap between coming home from work and going to sleep by playing WoW. I didn't get any pleasure from playing, but I was completely withdrawn from my friends and didn't find doing anything else enjoyable either. I pugged rank 11 on my mage during this time simply because I was playing so much. I had no idea that I was depressed and my lack of feeling was abnormal until the depression was over, although my mom had encouraged me to see a psychologist several times (she has bipolar II disorder, and recognized the symptoms of depression).

I've often felt that I might have a bit of a disorder socially. I just feel awkward sometimes with people...like I should say something but have no idea what to say.

As for the depression, I feel you there. After I broke up with my girlfriend of almost 5 years, I became depressed as hell for months. It's actually when I started playing WoW. I would wake up at like 12PM, play until 4AM, and then just repeat the same thing over and over. I rarely left my room, and almost failed out of college as a result. Only having an IRL friend who was there for me, and who convinced me to join a fraternity saved me.

I definitely think people can have "seasonal depression" or "depression" that exists because of traumatic life experiences etc. I think the actual chemical imbalance depression is often over diagnosed. Many people just need to examine their life and make positive changes in order to fix their depression. I know that's what I did (on a side note, I did get perscribed depression meds...took them for a while and was just like...fuck this I don't need medication, I can beat this myself).

An interesting article about treatments for depression:
http://www.newsweek.com/2010/01/28/the-depressing-news-about-antidepressants.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome
they diagnosed me with Asperger's way back when i was like 13. i know i've shown symptons of it over the years, and denying i have it it would be very derp, especially for anyone who knows me. i guess i'm just lucky though, because i can generally make it through day to day life, albeit it gets really fucked up at times. most people who have this, the ones i met anyways when i went to an "OMGGROUPHELP" thing, seemed to be completely dysfunctional in any social manner at all.

other then that i'm "clinically depressed" because of upbringing/surroundings, and several things i saw/went through that probably won't leave me in this lifetime. some are almost 10 years old and still bug me. other then that, anxiety comes with it in the form of not being able to sleep very well and just general frustration when things don't go right or just seem to fuck up for no reason, such as messing up breakfast, lawnmowers being retarded, derp derp. pretty sure anxiety is completely caused by the former, as i've never met anyone who is legitimately depressed and isn't completely at the end of their nerves with just about anything.

I'm completely well adjusted despite being paranoid and narcissistic with hints of sadism and lemon.

The lemon makes it smell good.

Mmmmmmmmmm.......lemon.

Your Pal,
Jubber

AKA "The Gun"
AKA "ROFeraL"

World Renowned Mexican Forklift Artiste

persistant aura without infarction (a painful forever headache that began in october of '09), accompanied with awesome visual snow and afterimages. dark surfaces, like shadey areas or my black cat's body, look like TV static. the night sky looks like a busted TV; very chilling, causes severe depression in many who have it. sorta like your world being a broken jpeg.

diagnosis was funny.

"well the scan results show total brain health. it's notta tumah."

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"but there is little data on what you have, just that it will never go away and there is no cure, forever."

!!!!

Calx - I feel a fraction of your pain... sometimes.

Occasionally I suffer from Migraines with Aura - maybe about once or twice a year. Starts off with a temporary loss of vision in one half of my field of view. After about thirty minutes of that, I get the intense headache... followed by severe vomiting, light and sound sensitivity, flashing lights/zigzags and pain. After the first couple hours of my migraine, I'm just weak, cold and tired. My migraines normally last for two days but they've gone to three days before.

They're less frequent I feel since I cut caffeine out of my diet. Also, I try to eat healthier. I had a doctor look at me and they said they can't really say what triggers them.

yeah i get cluster headaches and the only thing ive found that helps is when you get the aura or feel a headache coming, drink 3 cans of red bull as fast as you can. that ususally makes it not come. or an oxygen tank.

It's creepy how many weird things we have in common.

I started getting migraine headaches when I was in the Navy. I don't get any unusual visual cues during mine, but I do have extreme light sensitivity (sound doesn't bother me quite as much) during my episodes. I have tried several times to stop drinking caffeine, but whenever I do this it sets off chains of headaches. I keep several types of (usually OTC) painkillers on hand at all times, and have an emergency packet in my wallet just in case so that I can try to head off any episodes when I feel them coming on.

While I don't have any unusual visual cues, there are times when I see things that others don't. One thing in particular that I notice are "runners" in clouds that I'm pretty sure are electrical arcs. No one else seems to be able to see them when I point them out. They look like little worms that are squiggling around, and they are more pronounced in storm clouds, which is why I think they are static arcs.

Your Pal,
Jubber

AKA "The Gun"
AKA "ROFeraL"

World Renowned Mexican Forklift Artiste